Me Time

 

Back then alone meant a lot of things to me. Alone meant you were of or by itself, without any thing more or any one else, without a sharer. Only. Sole. Exclusive. It meant that you were apart from anyone else, nobody wanted to be with you and that you were cast aside. You were mostly the center of mockery. These things mentioned are so horrible, right? Being alone was like a disease anyone wanted to avoid because it calls for poignancy. So sad.

With a family of 5 siblings, I can honestly say I’m rarely lonely and rarely alone. I have playmates, schoolmates and friends  and most of all my family. But that doesn't mean I don't have my share of me-time.

I can still remember my first time to travel ALONE back when I started my college. I went and finished my college at Mindanao State University-Iligan Institute of Technology, Iligan City which is more or less 4 hours travel from Zamboanga del Sur, my hometown. I had so many worries with my first time to travel alone, worried if I might get lost or worried if something happen along the way. Oh those non-sense thoughts back then. Throughout my travel I've learned that being alone is not at all bad. I had great time watching the view of those places not familiar to me, even ate alone and had an alone time thinking what lies ahead of me as I go on with my new journey.

That first travel I believed was the beginning point of so many alone moment that came after.

Studying alone, doing grocery alone, malling alone, fixing university schedules like the ones with my PE subjects, checking my favorite books at bookstore and even attending parties alone.To eat when you want, shop when you want, and no one to look after.Theres nothing wrong with going to the movies or dinner by yourself once in a while.A few moments of total alone time is an excuse to be selfish and remember what it was like when every second of the day was your own.

There were times when I just want to be left alone. I just want to keep quiet for some reasons. I don't feel like talking at times and just do "me time".  That’s all I want. Im not saying Im forever alone, I’m saying that I like to be alone in my own moments. I kind of like staying in my own little world sometimes, just me and my self.

With alone it will just let you be. You are free to be you. You don't have to fix your hair. Don't have to take a bath, either. You are free to imagine and think of so many things even those nonsensical reveries. Even talk to yourself and plan for something you want to do for your life in the coming days. Alone is a perfect time to venture into something new, new things you are not used to do.It's a plain fact that for the rest of our lives we're stuck by ourselves so its a better way to get used to it and be comfortable.

Alone is not at all horrible, in fact it's quite lovely.